Why do i want my dad back in my life even tho all he did was abuse me?

i want my dad back in my life especially now that my mom has a new boyfriend and we moved in with him. i dnt like my moms boyfriend at all and would rather go live with my dad and get d and beaten. my moms boyfriends worsted then my dad. and i sort of want my dad back in my life i want my dad to save me. is there something wrong with me for wanting him back in my life?