How to get over the trauma of a parent's illness and death?

I know just how you feel hun I felt just the same when my dad ped away. All I could think about was his illness (lasted 6 months). Only time will heal your pain im afraid.There is no quick fix I just wished there was. My dad died 26 years ago and its still so painful at times. You will start to remember the good times and the bad painful ending will fade a bit but never go away. You will never get over this but you will learn to live with your loss. I would like to wish you the best of luck and hope that your pain fades in time.